For years I struggled with my Christian faith and homosexuality. I wanted to share my painful journey through a secular world at odds with homosexuality, in addition to a religious world that is hostile to homosexuals. Perhaps sharing this journey through the eyes, and mind, of a confused child dealing with homosexuality will give some insight into the pain and difficulty of navigating these two worlds.
Sadly, many gay, lesbian and transgender individuals don’t know that there is a God who loves them and longs to have a relationship with them. Many have been brainwashed by mean-spirited Christians that God hates them.
I would eventually spend approximately 25 years immersed in the world of homosexuality and share some of the pitfalls of that life. This is not about glamorizing a life I once lived nor is it about self-pity.
Deliverance from what many refer to as the “homosexual lifestyle” is possible. While some transition successfully into a heterosexual life, others (like myself) have chosen celibacy. The main goal should be trying to live a life that is pleasing to God and in alignment with His will. There is hope in Christ.
My bondage was homosexuality, drugs, alcohol, a sex addiction, as well as emotional issues ranging from depression to suicidal thoughts, despair, anger, shame, rejection, etc. Whatever we struggle with, our behavior is usually driven by root core issues that need to be addressed.
Once I surrendered my life to Jesus, this unlocked the power of the Holy Spirit to start working in my life. God knew the core issues and helped me address those issues. This healing was needed in order to have the strength to walk out of that life and overcome the destructive behavior. The mainstream media will not cover stories like mine because it goes against the narrative that change is possible.
My story is not an attack on the LGBT (Lesbian, Gay, Bisexual, Transgender) or Christian communities, nor is my story a representation of what all LGBT individuals go through. This is merely my journey and what I learned along the way.
I share this with you for His glory, not mine. Thank you for reading.